It has dawned on me this morning that my summer stint of work in Ibiza is only 3 weeks away and I can feel the familiar knot of panic in my stomach when I think about it! It’s a weird sesnation, knowing that I havent got much time to put my life in order before moving overseas for the summer and not wanting to actually do anything to make it easier! Its almost like it seems like such a monumentous task that it puts me off altogether, which of course only makes things worse because then it ends a last minute rush at the end! Its funny how many people comment on my lifestyle that they are jealous and what a great life it must be, failing to realise how stressful such a tumultuous existence can be. I have heard that moving home is one of life’s top stresses, imagine having to do that twice a year every year…now do you see?
Don’t get me wrong, I love it out in Ibiza, it is my second home and the thought of guaranteed sunshine and beautiful views out of my window are definately worth it but the whole process of getting out there and back is enough to send my pulse through the roof. Couple that with my current state of confusion over where I am in life (am I young, am I old, past my prime, just hiting it?) and its a recipe for disaster…..there is only one thing to do when your heart is pounding and your stress levels high (w**k?) and it hardly helps my situation does it?! 
Luckily I found a new term coined for girls in my age bracket…. The Puma. I have made reference to my ‘Cougar-In-Training’ Status a few times but I am not quite old enough to fit into that category and apparently, girls in their 30’s who lust after younger men are known as ‘Puma’s ‘ – Yay I can finally rest knowing who I am at last! ha ha. I should point out that I am talking tongue in cheek here, before I get bombarded with student requests to come and be my ‘Cub’. I have noticed that I look at younger guys a lot more recently though, which is a little odd to me but apparently it is their carefree lifestyle, the fact that they have not yet nailed a high powered career and are a lot more relaxed that appeals. Oh…and lets not forget that men peak sexually in their mid-late twenties and women a lot later 
I also think it could be an act of rebellion, a little like guys with their Mid Life Crises…trying to resist the slippers in front of the fire, only in my case it is likely to be my body clock ticking loudly in the background, grrrr.
So, I am reacting exactly as a woman in crisis should and dealing with it in the only way I know how…..that is to get rid of the heat between my legs and hope it will allow me to concentrate on the task of turning my world upside down for a few months again! To help me on my way I have recruited Pretty Young Thing, Jess West, who stars in my latest video at Rebekah Dee and Friends, watching her writhe around on a bed with me, mutually masturbating eachother with our buzzing buddies certainly helped me forget my list of things to do for a while
Hopefully you are more focussed than me today and so I feel it my job to corrupt you to make me feel better about how ’slack’ I am feeling. Go on…..indulge me
If you need further distraction, click the images to visit my site and download the video!
Thanks for listening to my hormone driven angst this morning…..I will stop moaning and start ‘doing’ and I promise to be in a better mood soon! 
Rebekah xxx
But today, I got a workout in early and feel a hell of a lot better for it so things are looking better already! Working out does make me horny though so I am going to have to give my midle finger a workout in the shower in a minute 
